CONTINUATION

I sincerly don't know what's happening with me nowadays since I seem to have lost all the moral for blogging (even updating my blog now seems to take ages and I don't seem to even have the words to write) and instead I have resulted into reading other pple's blogs and trying to relive there lives and acquire there imaginations (no am not a stalker.....).

Of late I have even been asking myself why I do this, for what purpose and for whom, since if it were for someone else then am deeply mistaken since I doubt whether there are pple who even visit this page, if its for myself, then am yet to see the changes. But its funny because since the time I started blogging (which isn't that long) I have found a sort of haven where I can go and upload my anger, thougths, emotions and even opinions about this which I can't or haven't had the courage to speak out loud; guess the blog acts like the shrink and the blogger the patient.

And the main reasons as to why the emotions and thoughts are strong is because, Its me and myself and I can lie to anyone else or pretend but I can't do this to myself, since I will know its all a lie.

Well, got to work on time but not after having to walk amost a mile to catch a bus (I had waited for the bus at my normal stop for almost have an hour, so I gave up and decided to go to the next stop, but on my way there the bus finally decides to show up but it couldn't stop since I wasn't standing at the bus stop), no wonder I get to work tired and sweaty in the morning and have to do damage control after that.

Well today is the big day and all young and hype pple will be meeting at the center, starting 12.00 noon to listen to a bunch of guys from the states, give lectures on abs., there will be muscians, games, food (did I mention that....) and some other exciting stuff but I can honestly say I don't think it will be well with me to go, since I know how messed up and emotional I will get after this, and on top of that am working and have lots of work to do here (I know this is just a lame excuse....) even though I wanted to go, I still have my reservations, considering the guys I will meet there and how I react to them! I think its in my best interest if I don't go.

I guess that's all I have to say for now.