INTRODUCTION

Came to the office late to day, reason being I over slept and funny enough I don't feel guitly about it and I don't want to lie about it either, so that means I will have to be quiet about it and neither tell the administrator or MD about it.

During the aftermath (read previous post to know what am talking about), I got to make painful but important changes in my life regarding the so called friends; which so far I don't think am a shamed of. In that period also I found myself ensnarled by my old past and weakness, which I can honestly say I thought I had conquered and overcome but the incidents that took place showed other wise.

But on a postive note I got to find other bloggers out there who were going through the same same thing I was, or have already gone through it at one time or the other and some pretty funny and interesting blogs as well, which if I get the time I promise to add to my collection of bloggers and even comment on them.

I also got to make major changes regarding my weekends especially sundays, which most of the time were full of disappointments and anger thus making me feel so bad about my self. On the same note I got to break the ice between me and the singer and the crew, and even got to spent the last sunday's afternoon with them at church.

If God wills I will try and give an actual account of what transpired, what led to the changes, what was the reaction and effect on both me and the ones affected and what new thing has taken place so far.

Regarding the so called, I have decided to drop both artist and the soontobesinger (it was already overdue) and conncentrate on other things and myself for once. Since all I seemed to get from them was contempt, feeling of being used and rejection. The artist didn't take it lightly but am sorry thats what I had to do (what do you do with a person who seems to be interested in you just for what you can do for them?), I haven't been this open to soontobesinger, but my distance sure has spelt whats on my mind.

I have also decided to do the same as far as the salesperson is concerned, since am tired of his empty promises and hoping that they will change and be the ones to bring the much needed friendship I want, and honestly this I can say has been my biggest problem since am looking to mortal man to get the true friendship instead of christ who is a friend that sticks closer than a brother. I know this will mean having no friends and being lonely but I think its worth it and even if it means having to start all over again, am prepared and this time am wiser.

I can't say that the battle is over; there are still issues I need to work own seriously and pray that God will give me the strength to do it.

So with that let me end this blog and try and do some work.