God has been working on me, lately and every day there is a new lesson to learn, 'assigment' to do, 'projects' to present and most of all attitudes to be adjusted.

I can't say I have played my part very well or have been faithful enough as doing His will or living up to His word is concerned. But am trying to get back on track and hopefully catch up from where I left.

The year is almost coming to an end, and everyone and everything seems to be screaming Christmas and the place to be, things to do and pple to be with in order to have fun. But I know this is not the case with me, since the more I hear about it; the more the loneliness and melachonic feelings deep inside me are stirred up.

I don't know what to do or where to go since the place to be or pple to be with are not even there in the first place. My prayer this year was that I shouldn't have to go through what I had gone through during my previous christmas holidays and I fear for a repeat of this, come this Christmas.

But I don't know whether I should console myself with the fact that Christmas is far to start worrying about it or wondering how it will turn out to be. But I will also be lying if I say I don't think about it almost daily.

My battles with eyecandies are taking new turns everyday and I don't even have the strength or confidence to say where I am in this fight or where my strength lies. For I know where I at times get myself.

Smartkid came with moods today. But I let go since I had no intentions of having my moods or day spoilt by someone else. By the way its good that they left later after that.

So where do I stand in all of this? The answer! am not sure but all I can say is that I pray am standing on the sure foundation and am rooted perfectly in Him.