Had a really bad night yesterday.

All this because of the youknowwho's ignorance and lack of self respect not only for herself but for the family.

Of late I have discovered thesaid person, no longer has any regard for themselves, or the fact that they represent a certain role in society and they are too old to be doing what they are doing.

All this made me yell at them last night, and talked words I never thought I could say. But am glad I said them but am still hurt from what I show last night and the fron put up by youknowwho.

The worse thing is that, they could do what they did last night even after years of warning them, talking to them and trying to convince them that what they were doing was wrong, unethical, stupid and even unbibilical. You will be shocked that even after the fight we had, they still went ahead and did what I had warned them about.

Am really tired, and I have reached a point where I feel like moving out and just getting away from all this. I can't imagine that the pple I at times look up to for encouragement and support are the very ones that are contributing to my hurt, and further depression that am trying so hard to fight.

Last night wasn't the first incident they did what they did, and on more so they came late, drunk and not caring how they had left the house. I feel so down, and this makes me feel even worse when the thought of going home runs in my head, since I know who and what to find when I get there.

This and the kind of response and attitude I get from pple at the office not forgetting the so called friends, makes me bleed inside and ask God why I have to walk this path and face all these things.

Right now, I don't know what to tell youknowwho, when I see them since they didn't sleep at home, I don't seem to have the words or strength to encourage myself anymore, I don't seem to have solutions to these issues and I don't seem to have anyone to share this with.