Why 'never again' keeps happening

To be honest, things have been on a rotation table, if its not me; its the pple
around me and if its not the pple around me then its me.

This has been the song and am tired. Well am I really? thats the question I need
to address.

I gave up a long time on on the phrase 'never again' after having gone through
alot of emotional torture from the so called 'the club' and I vowed I will
'never again' let someone/ something treat me that way again.

Well right now I find myself back in the same place facing the same things asking myself the same questions. And I wonder wasn't this my "Never again".


So I have adopted a new phrase to my reduntant phrases "we must learn from our mistakes"
But if you ask me this is a pricasa to the old and rejeceted one "Never again".

My life and moments have been charactized by the same and familiar stories, its like if I have been acting out the same old script over and over again, and instead of learning from my old mistakes I have found myself back in the same pot I was in a few days ago even after using that famous phrase
"never again".


Last week in the midst of my running up and down I discovered myself asking the same old question
"why am I running?" and the answers that came forth were the same old ones I got when I asked myself so not long ago. And the more I thougt about them the more I found myself saying "Never...."
Yes that same old phrase "Never again".

The scenes have been the usual ones, Characters different but same roles, same urges and familiar battlefields and thats why I said "same script different kind".

Lately I have been telling myself of the need to let go of certain pple and avoid certain situations, but at back of my mind I fear am just 'telling' myself for sooner or later I will find myself back there again, telling myself "never again" or should I say "I should learn from my mistakes"!